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8.28.2006

One of THOSE People

I'm one of *those* people. You knowl the ones who write all over their Bibles.

When I was growing up the church I attended taught that the Bible 1. HAD to be King James version, or you'd go to Hell and 2. should never be desecrated with notes or scribbles or anything.

I've defied both of those rules in my old age. I use the NASB -- I believe that translation to be closest to the original text. The King James Version was written to provide the common people during *that* time with access to the Scriptures. Why shouldn't we have a version containing modern day language?

Anyway...

I also scribble (write) in my Bible. My writing often resembles scribble more than anything else, so... I underline things, jot notes in the borders of the pages and use the harder pages in the front and back of my Bible as note pages. Why waste paper? :)

Every once ina while something in the notes will catch my eye and remind me of some truth I had heard but forgotten. Sunday I had such an experience. Notes from two separate ocassions stood out to me.

Note 1 said, "God opposes the prideful. Maybe you are being opposed so that you won't be so independent." Ummm... OUCH!

Pride and independence are probably my absolute biggest struggles. I have my guesses as to why that is, but I'll spare you the gory details. Just Friday I was thinking (whining, lamenting, whining some more) about how I hate our financial status right now and how I swore I'd never end up broke and blah blah blah. I was even trying to figure a way to work and keep Eddie with me. Silly me.

I *knew* beyond a shadow of a doubt when Eddie was born that I needed to be at home (or at teh hospital) with him. However, I was terrified of not having insurance or a roof over our heads or whatever. So, in my natural, sinful, stubborn, prideful, independent state I attempted to work from home in between pumping milk and visiting the hospital and trying to figure out how we were going to pay the astonomical hospital bills.

Suddenly my remote connection to work was no longer working and no one at the office could figure out why, much less fix the problem. So, I was out of that job. I was okay though because I was using my Mac to do some freelance design work. I had a few decent-sized jobs lined up. Wouldn't you know that my Mac died completely too. Utterly dead. I had no way at all to work.

Funny how that happened. Our bills were still paid though and I was much happier being able to spend more time with our son. I shoulda learned this lesson the first time. So, seeing that note on Sunday reminded me that I need to do what I know I need to do and stop trying to play God.

Note #2 said, "The crucified man can only look in one direction, he can not go back and he has no plans of his own."

Well, I reckon that means I should stop trying to plan out every detail of my life and just (to borrow a phrase from Lindsey) enjoy the journey.

My will doesn't really matter and only seems to cause trouble -- I am a redhead afterall. If I am obedient, the rest will fall into place according to HIS will. Sometimes that may stink for me, but it will be worth it in the end -- according to 1 Peter and Job 23:10.

2 Comments:

Blogger Carrie said...

Oh my, I didn't realize your were one of THOSE people.

I finally just bought an ESV journaling Bible so I can write into. I have never written in my Bible b/c I'm just one of those OTHER people (I never wrote or highlighted textbooks in college, I like books clean).

Anyway, stop worrying about money! It's easy for me to say because I'm talking to you and not myself, but seriously, just trust in God to take care of it. I know you know that already but I wanted to say it.

It seems clear God pushed you out of working from home b/c he wanted you to spend time with Eddie. Figure this is just a phase in your life and 5 years now the finances will be much better.

Hope you don't mind the lecture. It is meant as encouragement :)

7:07 AM

 
Blogger Lindsey @ Enjoythejourney said...

I love, love, love writing in my bible. I make notes, underline, highlight....I even write things in my bible such as "Cleo's favorite verse, age 5" and "Marcy's first bible verse memorized" and other things.

It is my hope & prayer to completely fill up 3 bibles by the time I die with my notes and such. I want to leave one for each of my kiddos.

:) Now, I will say I am a KJV girl, thru and thru ONLY because I like the language. I have a NIV I keep on hand to help me understand things when the KJV is too wordy. I am just old fashioned but I do not think KJV is the only spoken word of God. In fact, if you want the truest version of the Bible, it isn't even in ENGLISH!!! :)

2:49 PM

 

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