Hope.

First, I must tell you that I am convinced Pastor is reading my blog. He mentioned on Sunday that people had said that he had been reading their mail after they heard his Peace Speaker sermon. Now, the only way he'd know *that* is if he read *my* blog right? Just kidding. I'm not that self-centered.

Friday I just moped around. Pathetic, I know. Saturday was a new day though and I woke up a little refreshed. I found cheap tickets online one way to San Diego. That's where the car that Ed's grandma is giving us is. So I booked those. We leave this Saturday morning -- EARLY! We'll spend a few days in San Diego, then drive up to Salt Lake City to see Ed's dad. Then we'll head back East.

Yeah, we are gonna drive acros the country with a 13 month old. I think my hubby is on crack too, but I love him anyway.

We figured we should get the car now while he has no responsibility to a job and since the tickets were so cheap.

Then I was social. I know, can you believe it? We cooked out with our upstairs neighbor and their 18 month old son. It was fun.

Sunday was church and then we went to a friend's house. Ed has been friends with this guys since waaayyyyy before I knew him.

Last night though, I got a bug up my rear and was determined to find a job for Ed. I searched online and found a directory of airlines. Some of them are small airlines, some are charter companies and some are cargo companies. They are located all over the nation. VERY good resource.

I sent Ed about a thousand emails with links for jobs he should apply for so he spent today sending out resumes. The owner of one of the regional airlines called Ed back today. He was not very friendly though.

Later we decided what Ed's going to do. Forget waiting on a pilot job. He's going to do a voluntary deployment in VA for 6 months (at least). That's not too far away, so we can visit often. There is a small flight school on base there so Ed can instruct there in his off-duty time. And the pay for deployment is really good. He'll make enough to cover all our bills and to pay for a good chunk of flight time. And that's not even taking into consideration the fact that he is up for a promotion in rank with the NG that will bump his pay up another $400-500 a month.

So, that's where we are. It will stink being separated from him for so long. It will REALLY stink being a single mom for so long. BUT, he can visit and we can visit and this is only temporary.